That Beautiful Something Somewhere

I remember when I was 6 years old, I used to pretend I was a monkey running from a crocodile... by the time I was 8 and 9, I would go through any wooded area pretending I was a fairy princess that was trying to find my way through the forest... by 12 I was climbing trees like they were mountains... and by 14 I wanted to find true love. we believe so much as children, so many different things. It wasn't of course that I was a monkey running from a crocodile, but the point was I knew that I could get away from any danger if I tried. And when I pretended to be a fairy princess, its not that I believed I was, but I knew I was precious and wanted to find something more out there in the world, and when I tried to climb my tree like a mountain, I knew at the time it was the tallest thing that could get me high into the sky, to reach out and touch the great unknown. And true love is just as exciting to attain. It is all of those things piled into one desire: to find something worth having.

never stop searching for that beautiful something, or someone! Find yourself first though, or you may very well pass right by that someone because you are too busy staring at your feet, watching where you are going, instead of knowing and exploring with your eyes wide open!

Life likes to laugh

Some people may think this title seems a little bit funny, and that is how I want it. I'm in a class right now and I was asked what makes my writing stand out... and I would have to say my writing tends to show the reality of a person and their story. In my eyes though, I believe reality involves humor. My own life is a pretty decent testament to life exuding hilarity. When I was a child I was considered quite the klutz. My dad, like many other fathers of young klutzy kids, often said that I could trip over a dust bunny, and I often did. But as I got older, these klutzy moments ended up transforming into something pretty interesting, and quite humorous to any who witnessed these moments. My family and I still refer to these moments as 'Movie Moments' because so many of these ridiculous things just couldn't happen in real life.

One of these moments that has always stood out, even over ten years later, is when I was raking leaves one day when I was 11-years-old so I could earn money to go to the newest Harry Potter movie. It was late October, and getting pretty cold though we had yet to have our first snow yet in Lewistown, MT. I felt tiredness overwhelm me as I lazily pulled the big blue garbage can with wheels along the grassy lawn, and I decided not to close it in-between putting leaves in any longer. I would rake and pull, rake and pull, when all of a sudden the garbage can surprised me! It began to keep moving, though my hand still held its handle tight, and I felt it move down, down, down to the ground. Before I knew it, I was inside the garbage can looking out to the world wondering how I had managed. I was thankful that no one had seen my little trash-can moment, and said to myself, "Well at least this can't get any worse." And as those words left my lips, I remembered that my mom had thrown out two metal chairs that day, and suddenly those chairs fell on my head.

I went inside with leaves strewn throughout my hair, and a bump rising on my head, and a shocked expression on my face as I go to mom and say, "Mom..."

She looked at me with a curious look before crossing her arms and said, "What happened this time?"

When your mom can ask that question with a straight face, you know you are a klutz! This is just one of my many ridiculous moments, and some of them really are quite unbelievable. I can't even tell you how many times people have told me to write my autobiography or a movie about my life. But why does any of this matter anyways? Well, I just wanted to remind you all that in those moments where we want to cry because we are embarrassed, remember that later you can look back and smile.

There is more

I have definitely lived an incredible life up to this point, and even though I am young, I can truly say that already I feel like my life is a full life. I think in general people meet me and think that I am just always overly optimistic and that nothing can ever get me down. People almost act as though I am impervious to the sadness in this world... well that is just wrong. The thing about me is that I don't see the point in focusing on the bad, and I always want to believe the best even in hard situations. Sometimes people judge me because of this quality and try to take me down, but why? Because I see the world in a happier way? Why can't we all look at life from a new perspective?

I believe that we decide the quality of life we lead, and that is beyond how much money we make or how big our houses are. I believe that we choose whether we live a happy life or not. So choose to live a happy life!

What does your reflection say?

http://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/life-after-massive-weight-loss-211106512.html

So I may get flak for what I am about to say about this article, but near the bottom, when it talks about a writer, Jasmin something, she talks about having lost her large amount of weight and being distressed over suddenly being complimented. She says people treated her inhuman because she had been fat. I don't like to admit how much I weigh in general, but I currently weigh 214 pounds, which is a little less than that woman did. She said people never complimented her on anything, and people didn't hold open doors. Now, I agree that in our society when beauty is often decided by the size of your waistline, there will always be people that will avoid us if we are larger... but I think this woman may have over reacted... and this is why: sometimes when you are larger, your confidence is incredibly low. When I am feeling a 'fat' day and I just feel so much bigger than I probably am, I tend to dress simply, keep my eyes down so I don't meet other people's gazes in fear they will notice how big I feel. But on days when I just look in the mirror and remember I am gorgeous no matter my size, I get compliments up to wazoo! I think in general, it is about the confidence! It easy to feel confident when you lose a pound, or 100 in this woman's case, so of course more people would notice her. So any who, yeah, I think we as women just need to be more confident and comfortable with how we look, even if we know we need lose a few pounds. 

We really do reflect the how we feel on the inside! 

Minutes

Today I didn't see you
  and where you were
     I wish I knew,
But you never left my mind,
   visions of could-be's
      forced me to rewind

I tried to move on,
   let my heart be momentarily strong
but thoughts of you kept holding on
   and I wanted me and you to belong...

My day went by,
   I didn't let myself cry
And the world went on speeding by,
   until I looked at the time...

Hours acted as minutes on the clock
   and I could no longer hear
        the tick-tock
But your melodic voice came in my ear
   but you aren't here...

But in my heart you never left
   and in my mind dreams still come true,
Yet something is missing...
  what a cruel theft
   and what was taken and who stole it,
       the answers both are you.

Let her go...

Do you hear me,
  Oh my love...
Do you hear me,
  as I cry your name...

No I won't cry,
  not this time my love;
No I won't cry,
  I won't play this game;

I see you inside crying,
   my dear love;
I see you inside crying,
   as you break my heart...

I know you meant it,
  this time my love;
I know you mean it,
  yet you will miss me
  as you allow me to make a new start

"If you love her let her go"
    and so you are my love;
If you love her let her go...
   giving me the best chance
   at a fresh start,
   new plans,
   a new heart...

Let her go...

This Post is about God

Don't let lies overtake you today. It is so easy to get overwhelmed by the "I can't..." moments in our lives, but it doesn't have to be that way. We could do so much with our lives if we just trust in God. There have been a lot of roller coaster moments in my life recently, but instead of letting those moments decide how I will feel, I will instead look towards the one who has guided me my whole life.

I know so many have questions about God, whether he is real or not, etc... but for me, God is real. I have so many moments within my life that I have no doubts whatsoever that he is real. And though I will not share what exactly is happening in my life right now, there is something I do want to share and that is the fact that God is working a miracle in my life. So many people give up anymore, but for me, I want to stand up and keep trying. Today in church, for the first time in probably years, I was put in a position where I fell to my knees and just sang to God. He revealed so much to my heart today, and it was incredibly exciting. God is truly so amazing, especially in the moments when you feel so small like nothing could possibly get better. Those are the moments he shows you the beauty that can happen if you trust.

This post is in no way trying to convince people that they need to believe in God, that is totally your choice. So I don't want any rude comments either, because this was mostly just a vent for me. I'm having a hard time and wanted to share the little bit of excitement that came up today.

Have a blessed day

~Mycheille